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[19 Dec 2015|05:27am]
As of the end of this week I am officially finished with my doctorate. A year and a half, making everything up from scratch, and neglecting almost every social obligation that passed by me and I'm finally finished. Most people take a lot longer to finish their programs, but considering the exceptional first hand resources, one of a kind journals, and a job that involves meticulously categorizing rare books, I can say that I probably had the kind of unfair advantage that can usually only be found by either paying off or sleeping with the entire revue board.

And I didn't even have to sleep with anyone. I got to sleep with people, which is completely different. And fortunately for me none of those people were the ancient, crusty old men on the revue board. Wins all around.

But with that said, I've been in a bit of a funk the last couple of days. I've been working so hard for so long to get here and now that I'm finally finished it all feels a little anticlimactic. I'm where I've wanted to be for so many years, but I'm no closer to knowing what I want to do than I was when I started. If anything, I'm further away from that point because I had thought for most of the last eight years that I wanted to teach, but whatever spark of desire I had when I started is little better than a memory now. So much has changed that simply teaching people the old stories - much as I love them still - doesn't feel like it's enough anymore.

It doesn't help that I keep wondering if my father, were he still alive, would be proud of me yet. I can finally call myself a doctor, even if it's not the kind he wanted me to be. I may never make the kind of money that my brothers make and I may always live in a loft above a bookshelf kept running by blind hope and magic, but I still want nothing more than to be able to believe that he'd be proud of me. I know everyone else is, and I feel great about that - I feel comfortable allowing myself to feel great about it too - but the fact that he's not here to tell me makes it hard.

[25 Feb 2015|05:28pm]
I always enjoy speculation about fairytales, but this article about Alice in Wonderland and the strangeness of the human brain is a particularly interesting read.

Merry Christmas! [28 Dec 2014|12:50am]
Jacob )

Hans )

[16 Dec 2014|08:34pm]
Another year, another attempt to teach Hans about the wonders of Hanukkah. It's not as though I really practice anymore, or that I ever did in the first place, but some things you just do out of habit. We have a Christmas tree up too, and somewhere along the way I let Jacob con me into a yule log. Needless to say, my apartment looks a little too full of holiday cheer these days.

[28 Nov 2014|08:38pm]
I finally convinced Hans to watch Frozen yesterday (he got the short end of the Thanksgiving wishbone and my wish was to watch him sit through it). It was exactly as wonderful and filled with joy and magic as I anticipated. I'm truly thankful for that experience.

[21 Jul 2014|04:56pm]
[Private to Jacob]

So... I've got two tickets to this and I was wondering if you'd like to go with me? I was thinking we could do an early dinner before and then maybe your place after? To be honest, I sort of bought the tickets on a whim without realizing that it was on a Monday and that you might be busy but if you can't go for whatever reason, I'm sure I could find someone else who would be willing to take the second ticket but I'd really rather spend the evening with you.

[03 Jul 2014|01:11pm]
Unbeknownst to me, Fern sent my pertinent information into an astrologer friend of hers, and I received the following forwarded message in my inbox this morning. It is rather long, so brace yourselves. I've bolded the bits I think are particularly poignant.

Natal Chart Report )

I might have also emailed the woman back with Hans and Jacob's birthdates for a compatibility reading, my curiosity got the better of me, and the results were interesting, to say the least.

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